Alrighty then...let's see how this goes...my life for all to see...or is it really a life, living, or only existing.
If this is living then it's a sad sad existence. I guess maybe I'm hoping that by writing things down and maybe sometimes getting some feedback things might change.
How do I go about exacting change in my life to better it. I want this with all my being... but when it comes time for action I seem to be frozen, paralyzed, as if not knowing what should be done. So I do what is safe...nothing. Stay home, inside, screen calls, isolate. If I don't talk to anyone then they can't tell me what I'm doing wrong or what I should be doing or what a disappointment I am.
Daily I fight depression, recently diagnosed as bi-polar, maniac depressive. I'm on zeprexa and prozac. It's better then when I wasn't on anything but yet still not really good...just there...